I'm going back to school today.
I really hope I don't pass out again.
It's getting around the school about what happened Monday.
Breakfast; 1 slice bread - 60 calories.
Lunch; light fat free yogurt - 80 calories.
Dinner; unsure yet. (I'll edit this when I find out)
Total; 300 calories (soon)
Wish me luck.
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Monday, January 31, 2011
ERASE ME.
Because of the force feed, i'm starting abc over tomorrow,
along with a whole group of people, so it'll help out alot.
I'll bring water with me 24/7 from now on or something.
So, no more bloody noses, bloody vomit, passing out, and weakness.
....lol, I can dream... right? Whatever.
I fucking hate how much they made me eat.
Over 3000 calories, for sure.
I wanna slit my wrists and drown in my own blood.
That sounds better.
along with a whole group of people, so it'll help out alot.
I'll bring water with me 24/7 from now on or something.
So, no more bloody noses, bloody vomit, passing out, and weakness.
....lol, I can dream... right? Whatever.
I fucking hate how much they made me eat.
Over 3000 calories, for sure.
I wanna slit my wrists and drown in my own blood.
That sounds better.
YOU'RE HOME ALREADY?
Unfortunately, I came home early because I passed out and threw up blood.
My girlfriend, who was with me during school, tried to help me to the office,
and a teacher got pissed because she tried to fucking HELP ME.
He said, "no, you're lying." ......I hate him. I really do.
I have absolutely no clue why I threw up blood, but I know passed out from hunger.
I'm not scared. I'm not upset. I'm glad to be home,
but I can barely stay awake, even though the hunger pains are still here.
They're giving me soup. I'm going to have to eat it, so I will,
but soup will be the only thing i've had/i'm going to have today.
I weighed in today at 97.3.
My girlfriend, who was with me during school, tried to help me to the office,
and a teacher got pissed because she tried to fucking HELP ME.
He said, "no, you're lying." ......I hate him. I really do.
I have absolutely no clue why I threw up blood, but I know passed out from hunger.
I'm not scared. I'm not upset. I'm glad to be home,
but I can barely stay awake, even though the hunger pains are still here.
They're giving me soup. I'm going to have to eat it, so I will,
but soup will be the only thing i've had/i'm going to have today.
I weighed in today at 97.3.
Sunday, January 30, 2011
...WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?
So, I passed out after a shower.
I guess with having nothing yesterday and two apples today,
I needed more.
Dinner will be chicken pot pie.
That'll end me at 524 cals,
but my output is higher since I have ballet practice.
It's going to be okay.
I guess with having nothing yesterday and two apples today,
I needed more.
Dinner will be chicken pot pie.
That'll end me at 524 cals,
but my output is higher since I have ballet practice.
It's going to be okay.
DAY 1 ABC
Day one; 500 or less.
Breakfast - Apple.
Lunch - Apple.
Dinner - Apple.
I'm feeling kind of weak, but all is well.
I weighed myself this morning in at 97.5.
I think I can do this.
Breakfast - Apple.
Lunch - Apple.
Dinner - Apple.
I'm feeling kind of weak, but all is well.
I weighed myself this morning in at 97.5.
I think I can do this.
Saturday, January 22, 2011
WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?
I don't know what i'm going to do.
This is terrible.
I want to fly. I want to fly away, the air being my wings.
I'm so heavy...
i'm a fat ballerina.
This is terrible.
I want to fly. I want to fly away, the air being my wings.
I'm so heavy...
i'm a fat ballerina.
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